awww ::huggles:: sorry about your bad experience 8-/
I've been threatened a few times by the back end of a horse, never been kicked tho, but i've been bitten and stood on, and one tried to roll while I was on her, but i think she was tired and wanted a lay down *g* also had one try to buck me off, but i managed to stay in the saddle..she was a fiesty one *-) also had one decide to go off galloping when I hadnt asked..that was fun *-)
so your reluctance is completely understandable. *-D